This is for those who arent listening

Hi my cute family, Happy Halloween!! I opened my mission call one year ago today. It honestly feels like last month, time has been crazy. I remember being so excited when Dad called me and told me that the mail came. On the drive over to the house we talked about where I could go and what I was expecting. He told me in the car ride of the hopes he had for me through my mission and it makes me smile now to think about how I have been able to experience so many of those things. I often go back to this car ride with dad and remember how loved and safe I felt.  It has been a saving grace for me on my mission when I feel lonely.  Thanks Dad. 

This week has been a special one for me. Honestly, it's been a hard six months. Sister Ng and I have been working hard. We have goals every day of talking to as many people as possible, but despite our goals and even our success in achieving them we haven't been able to have any investigators. It's heartbreaking to see so many people get sooo close to having the gospel and then choosing to reject it. 

This week especially I have been feeling heart broken for my Hong Kong. They are so good. They make me laugh everyday.  As Sister Ng and I were walking the stairs down to the subway the other day I had an overwhelming feeling of love and concern for these people. We were up at the top so I could see all of these people in the station. It sounds strange but I felt literally called to them.  There were so many people. And I just wanted to run to every single one of them. The hardest thing is that they reject the message we try to share with them. We talk to so many of them but nothing seems to come out of it. It makes me sad, they deserve so much more. They are so good. 

I have been praying more earnestly than I ever have on the behalf of other people. I have been asking Heavenly Father to please give them more. Let them have light. Let them find a way to be able to accept it. As I plead with Him I realize that He wants the same thing. He and I currently have the same will, which is amazing to me.  That is why He is helping us do what we do, because so much more than my surface level love for them is His deep and abiding love for them. In general conference this past month Elder Nattress told a story about how his Mom would read him the Book of Mormon and he thought it was a waste because he wasn't listening. He then said that this gospel is for the boy who isn't listening. I testify of the truth of that.  This is unconditional love. He amazes me day by day. 

I hope you know (and of course you do and why am I even saying this but I'm a missionary just let me do my thing) that He loves you the same way. I hope you know my good Dad, and my sweet Mom, and my beautiful sister, and my sweet, precious brothers that you are loved beyond any measurement we are capable of comprehending. I sure love you too. You are loved, you are loved so much more than you could ever know.